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Bad days are over

When it comes to paranoid schizophrenia with which I was diagnosed long years ago. I wasn’t hospitalized for 6 years and for me it’s a huge milestone.

I no longer have bad days where I need double or triple the meds. Bad days are officially over and I got back my health.

I feel like I felt years ago before schizo.

While being in the nut house, most meds they gave me didn’t suit me. So I had to go there to test the meds, if I had the experience I have now then I’d probably be in nut house just once.

Those meds can make you a robot. I was a robot a few times, but now I’m okay.

Glad that’s over and my health won’t go bad on me.

Although I never had paranoid schizo, I just had psychoses. Maybe had 3-4 of them.

Nonexistence as nonexperience

All living creatures have infinite lives in infinite matrices.

That comes from understanding nonexistence as nonexperience.

When someone doesn’t exist they don’t register nonexistence as an experience.

That said, all lifeforms have infinite lives in infinite matrices because there are just two things: matrix construct and the matrix itself.

So all lifeforms go through matrix construct > matrix > matrix construct > matrix > …

Since someone is already within the matrix he or she can’t defy its existence.

When someone doesn’t exist it doesn’t experience time, time shifts and speeds up because before one was born he or she didn’t wait billions of years to come to the matrix.

Of course this is just a speculation, but it makes sense.